Brittleness, tools, and funding yourself.

The last 6 days, I spent in Spain at an advanced, deep dive workshop into Holistic Management. Three different ecoregions with four different farming operations to see and listen. Seeing what different tools like (over)rest and (over)grazing do in brittle and non-brittle environments just 50 km apart was fascinating yet again. The more brittle the …

The city and its overwhelm

It’s 04:30, and I can’t sleep anymore. I’ve been lying awake for an hour, listening to the wind outside the van and to the whirlwind of thoughts inside my head. I am back in Germany for less than 24 hours, and my brain is completely overstimulated. The intensity of conversations, the people, the city, its …

To show up in the world.

Coming back from the off-grid hike in the very north of Sweden, I also came back with a fresh look at my digital work. When I sat on the bus back from the hike, I was almost scared to be back in mobile service. To be present again on platforms like this here. Why am …

Everything falls into place while being outdoors. [Abisko to Nikkaluokta – Day 6]

The heaviness of the last day sets in. I don’t really wanna go back but my ankle tell me it’s okay. Six days with a heavy backpack, barefoot shoes, and a summit try was enough for now.  It is crazy how I needed 4 days to actually get into the groove, rhythm, and balance for …

When I sleep in a tent, I feel so much more refreshed. [Abisko to Nikkaluokta – Day 5]

Last night, when I lay awake because of the wind rushing through the trees around me, I felt so deeply grateful and happy to be here. That fascinates me during outdoor trips. When I sleep in a tent, no matter how interrupted and rough my sleep is, I feel so much more refreshed in the …

Being unprepared made me fall in love. [Abisko to Nikkaluokta – Day 4]

I slept well, the wind caressing the night, and my dreams were vivid. I wrap up my stuff, hanging it on all sides of the tent. There’s a herd of reindeer grazing on grasses, forbs, and shrubs on the valley floor. I reach a way sign. The regular path leads to the right to Singi, …

Being uncomfortable slows down time. [Abisko to Nikkaluokta – Day 3]

It is 04:00 am when I decide to end the night. I sit up and try to assess the situation. What a rough night. Wind and strong gusts came from different directions, slapping outer and inner tent against each other. The floor and bottom of the air mattress are completely wet. I have a lake …

I drank from a stream. It tasted like adventure with a hint of moss and ancient ice. [Abisko to Nikkaluokta – Day 2]

I listen to the river rushing down in the valley and the soft rain drops hitting the tent. It’s 3 am. Yesterday was the first time in a long time that I drank directly from a stream. It tasted like adventure with a hint of moss and ancient ice stored up high in the mountain. …

„Don’t pack your fears.“ [Abisko to Nikkaluokta – Day 1]

I’m walking away from the bus station and feel the weight of my backpack. Why did I have to get more food?  Last night, after arriving in Kiruna after a 15 hour bus ride, I panicked a little and bought more food. „Just for one more day“, I told myself. Back at home, I had …