Your journey is your journey. – Midlife reflection Part 2

Everything hurts. I crawl down from the upper bunk bed and try to loosens some of the stuff muscles I didn’t even know existed. I can barely lift my left leg. My hip flexor, or whatever that muscle is called, is totally overstrained. My neck is stiff, my head hurts.  Wow. Clearly, a rest day.  …

Give kindness to yourself. – Midlife reflection Part 1

The mountain wasn’t happy. I was shuffling against wind, fog, snow, and rain. I couldn’t see much. I was so new to skiing that the bad visibility made me either fall or continue snail-like slow.  For hours, I followed red crosses. „I must be there soon“, I thought. The lack of signs got me a …

As well as.

For the longest time, I thought | just had to find the *right job*, the right field of work, and that would be it. I would just get really good at it and stay with it. But I never dia. After a couple of years of immersion in each field, I always moved on. And …

Between years.

Sometimes you wake up or stop in your tracks and everything you did in the past year seems like a distant past, like a different self, like a dream. This morning is one of these days. For the last 5 years, I worked in regenerative agriculture, around management, as well as very hands-on. Like this …

Seeking sense-fulness.

Experience. We learn through experiences. We change how we do things or even adapt our worldview through experiences. We can relate to others when we have similar experiences as they do. There is only so much that we can learn or use from information. If we don’t make it into an experience, it stays something …

Brittleness, tools, and funding yourself.

The last 6 days, I spent in Spain at an advanced, deep dive workshop into Holistic Management. Three different ecoregions with four different farming operations to see and listen. Seeing what different tools like (over)rest and (over)grazing do in brittle and non-brittle environments just 50 km apart was fascinating yet again. The more brittle the …

The city and its overwhelm

It’s 04:30, and I can’t sleep anymore. I’ve been lying awake for an hour, listening to the wind outside the van and to the whirlwind of thoughts inside my head. I am back in Germany for less than 24 hours, and my brain is completely overstimulated. The intensity of conversations, the people, the city, its …

To show up in the world.

Coming back from the off-grid hike in the very north of Sweden, I also came back with a fresh look at my digital work. When I sat on the bus back from the hike, I was almost scared to be back in mobile service. To be present again on platforms like this here. Why am …